Jeez im kinda lonely today

Well  trying to cope with the fact that me and MAC are no longer together is stilla little hard to comprehend. 10 1/2 yrs is along time, but was to long to wait for someone to grow up. He was always this person that I thought would always be there and I was wrong. It is crazy because when I think about I was married with kids from the time I was 15, and divorced by 24. I met MAC right after me and my husband split up, and for the next 10 yrs we played this game that i didn't quite master at first. I sit here with nothing that i can take from this, but the heartache, and the empty promises. But I still have  my faith, kids, and family,  Your gonna read the stuff that I go through as I go through it, because this is my outlet, so feel free to leave advice.  But for now im gonna go for a walk and reflect. TTYL